archival : again :
And here I am thinking about him again.
Its the 4th of July and I wonder where he is and what he's doing.
We were together the last four years on this day.
I have vivid, vibrant memories from those fourths.
I don't want to be where I am.
I want my cats, but I don't want my life, my endless tread.
Still down, still not out. I want to be out, but I'm trapped.