A COMMUNAL EXPERIMENT IN SELF CURATION

a Soul Project

archival : second start :

I think this time
I'll be more exciting;
I'll be more spontanious,
And maybe he'll look at me
The way I used to
Look at someone else.
I'm hoping I'll be
That exciting;
That spontanious,
Or at least enough to
Catch his eye.
I've got to admit,
I'm still holding back.
I gave him what he wanted,
But was it what
I wanted too?
Or was I just trying
To pull him in
Like last time,
When we ruined everything.
I could love him,
If I allowed myself.