archival : more mine than ever :
My feet adorn the page.
Everything important is private
and my heart is locked away.
It feels good to understand oneself,
even if it makes me quiet on the outside.
Its not about anyone else, though.
These thoughts are mine alone.
Thats what I intended, all along...
though maybe I'd left them public
so that one day
you might happen upon them
(like you actually might have for all I know),
and you'd see this girl's thoughts
and know she cares.
And I can't help but think
that you'd either be flattered,
a flicker of yourself drawn to me,
or you'd be completely creeped out.
I know, its a lot to handle,
Well, privacy achieved.